Photo Tribute DVD

Please feel free to view the photo tribute DVD that was played at my mother's funeral today. You can see it above, or you can go to YouTube and look up Never Give Up Nancy.

Peacefully!

Nancy Lynn Farrill
Jan. 9, 1946-Sept. 5, 2010

She went peacefully in her home. We are all better people for having known her!

I love you mom!

Services: LDS church building Greenfield/Warner
495 S. Greenfield Rd
Gilbert, AZ
September 10, 2010 10:00AM
All are welcome.

Not Doing So Well....

So all of these posts have been a little catch up for me. I've been neglecting the Nancy News lately! It's official! We are on the DOWNWARD part of the Roller Coaster. In the past 2 weeks...I have seen a significant decline in mom. I hat eto say this is it...because as you all know, mom has 9 lives and she's only spent 5 of them! As sure as I hit 'publish' on this post, she'll bounce right back...at least that's my luck! If that is the case, I promise to post about it right away...BUT AS FOR TODAY, right now, she's not so good.

Sooo weak! I can't even tell you how weak! I had a hard time waking her today at noon. She would open her eyes then just close them again. Chewing food is not an option and drinking has become difficult. It has resulted in us pouring H2O into a childrens medicine spoon and pouring it down her mouth. Her speech is very hard to understand....I usually can get what she's trying to say...but I'm with her everyday....to the laman, you wouldn't get it! I am reading her a book to pass the time but still be able to spend time with her. She says she is not any pain, and that she is comfortable.

Last week, while in this weakened state, she asked me if I was going to be there? Yes mom, I am always here. She said, "but are you and Kevin and Courtney going to be here?" I said what do you got - a hot date? She replied, "No, in case I decide to die." I told her yes. I said, "You make the appointment with whomever you're supposed to make the appointment with...let me know when it is...and we will be there!" She smiled. That same day, she asked if I had heard from Verona (a close friend)? I said yes I get an email update every once in a while I reminded her. Then she asked about Bro. Weimer (her long time heaven sent Home Teacher). I asked if she wanted me to get in contact with these 2? She said I want them to speak. Then her speech croaked out again. I can only assume she meant at her funeral, since she was speaking of dying all afternoon. I don't want to beg her to stay, because she has endured soooo much, but I don't want to tell her ya go ahead and go right now. Everyday I have some sort of talk with her about how I'm OK, my family is OK, Mandy's OK, Aaron's OK. I ask if she wants to talk about anything. And I mention my Grandma ALOT! They were close, and I feel if mom does pass...Gram will be waiting to escort her away from this life. I want mom to know that if she does feel Gram's presence...it's OK.....it'll all be OK!

My brother is coming for a visit I think on the 4th of September. My sister told her that, and she asked, "That long?" Through it all, whatever she says or doesn't say...we crack jokes! I live to make her laugh/smile! If there is one thing that sticks out as taught by my mother...you always have 2 choices..Laugh or Cry. It's better to laugh!

Skinny Minnie !

So some readers of this blog will understand this post better than others! Look how thin mom has gotten?!?! She has always been on the heavy side. In fact, about 2 years ago, more or less, I saw ankles on her for the first time in my life! She was extatic! Weight loss has been her battle for her whole life. Standing at a whopping 4'9" it was hard for her to ever slim down. So when this whole downward decline began, I started feeding her all the fattning crap I could! And of course, she would refuse it at first (how the lady doth protest too much!) but then she would give in to the choclate sin!!! However, she still was refusing mashed potatoes, fried foods, etc..."It'll make me fat"! I couldn't get her out of the mode of thinking that....she's thought that way her WHOLE LIFE! So in the past year, I have been holding up her wrist for her to see...proving the fact that she was indeed skinny! She can't even wear my Grandmother's watch anymore...it just slides right off! her shirts are size small, but look how they fall off her shoulders in the picture!

Well as you can see, the past 3 months has been even more of a challenge weight wise. I always thought it was just a saying...SKIN AND BONES...but nope! It actually can happen! This is a picture of her holding her H2O cup. Just bones. I asked if I could post about it and she was actually happy to let me post pictures....saying, "I'm finally skinny!"
Well mom, just so you know...this is NOT A GOOD THING! Her little body is just not retaining any of the nutrients we feed it. Her teeth are even on the decline...but don't tell her that! She has always taken such good care of her teeth..they are still being taken care of, however, her body is just not functioning properly, so they are graying. At least she is happy that we can now call her "SKINNY MINNIE!"

A Day of Beauty - June 2010

So back in June...it was a day of beauty for mom. She was having an "up" day and it was unusually cool around these parts...so I took her outside for a haircut. Korynn was my little helper. here is a picture of the "after"...mom didn't want a "before"...so prideful! LOL :) Next we came inside and I polished her finger and her toenails! In a pretty summer pink color! She'd hate me for saying so, but then we plucked eyebrows, and chin whiskers...a dash of perfume and blush and she was beautified!

That same day, Korynn wanted to help some more...so she sat on Grammy's lap, as she has done so many times before and fed Grammy! Mom is so patient with this kind of "help"! I guess all grandma's are patient. Mom only ended up with only a few vegetables, a drip of ketchup, and some lemonade on her blouse! Way to go Korynn!

Here are Mom, Korynn, Kendyl, and Enna (my mom's sweet aide) after the lunch! I'm glad my mom can't feel much in her legs; cause whenever Korynn sits on my lap for that long...her boney bum starts to hurt my leg! :) These pictures are taken with me phone so forgive the blurry/grainy look.

No Complaint Zone!

My mom is sooo funny! She has just been on this downward decline for a while now. We all see it...even she knows it. This week it has been another UTI. (or so I think...I just guess at these thisngs because of her symptoms and I've been guessing correctly for like 30 years now!) Anyways, she has low grade fevers that come and go, her shoulders ache, and of course the new and improved UTI symptom --- wait for it ----the earache! I think her shoulders are truely in pain, that the pain escalates into her neck/ear area...a muscle pain caused from the infection! I bought homeopathic ear drops used to clean ears, and sometimes if I put a few drops in her ears with cotton, her brain tells her the pain is gone! Kind of like a sugar pill.

Anyways, last Friday she was wincing from the aches and pains. She's already on an antibiotic regimin to comabt any infection that might be present! But she wanted me to tell Beth to call the nurse and tell her she was hurting. I told Beth to call...but Beth, being the sweet caring woman she is immediately went to moms room to see if she was OK. She said, "OK Nancy, I will call the nurse and tell her you are COMPLAINING of ear and shoulder pain." My mom in her little barely audible voice said, "Ooohhh. Can you change the verbage?" What? Mom, you're not making sense. She replied, "I don't want you to use the word COMPLAIN. It sounds whiney. Can you say it a different way?" hee-hee! Beth and I had a good laugh over it! Beth told her she would tell the nurse that Nancy was feeling some discomfort in her ear/shoulders. Too Funny!

On those lines..TYLENOL is about the strongest thing my mom wants to take. She says anything else sends her to another world and she likes this world pretty good! Wow! Her one liners sneak up on you, but if you catch them...they can give you a good chuckle!

Mother's Day

Although a little late in the posting...we DID indeed celebrate Mother's Day with mom! It was a good one! I saw her Friday, Saturday, and Sunday! Friday was just my regular visit! Saturday, I took the kiddos, and Kendyl and Courtney played a litlle recital for her with the piano keyboard at the house. She LOVED every minute of it! Even when they made the keys sound like drums, then horns, then 'toots'! It was a gas! Get it? hahahaha! Even Korynn and Connor played/pounded on the notes a bit for her! It was Grammy's dream visit, I tell you! Then on Sunday, we all went over...even Kevin's parents and sister Katie. Mom was a little weak, but nothing new. She wished she'd been at church, but the visit brightened her day! She was wearing the pretty purple blouse I got her...she looks good in purple! I can see her getting thinner and thinner. Her hair seems to be thinning also. A shame - she has always had a beuatiful thick wavy head of hair. Anyways, just as we were ready to leave....guess who showed up? YEP - those cutie patootie Achievemnet Day girls. What angels they are! My mom's face brightened in seeing them also!