Not Doing So Well....

So all of these posts have been a little catch up for me. I've been neglecting the Nancy News lately! It's official! We are on the DOWNWARD part of the Roller Coaster. In the past 2 weeks...I have seen a significant decline in mom. I hat eto say this is it...because as you all know, mom has 9 lives and she's only spent 5 of them! As sure as I hit 'publish' on this post, she'll bounce right back...at least that's my luck! If that is the case, I promise to post about it right away...BUT AS FOR TODAY, right now, she's not so good.

Sooo weak! I can't even tell you how weak! I had a hard time waking her today at noon. She would open her eyes then just close them again. Chewing food is not an option and drinking has become difficult. It has resulted in us pouring H2O into a childrens medicine spoon and pouring it down her mouth. Her speech is very hard to understand....I usually can get what she's trying to say...but I'm with her everyday....to the laman, you wouldn't get it! I am reading her a book to pass the time but still be able to spend time with her. She says she is not any pain, and that she is comfortable.

Last week, while in this weakened state, she asked me if I was going to be there? Yes mom, I am always here. She said, "but are you and Kevin and Courtney going to be here?" I said what do you got - a hot date? She replied, "No, in case I decide to die." I told her yes. I said, "You make the appointment with whomever you're supposed to make the appointment with...let me know when it is...and we will be there!" She smiled. That same day, she asked if I had heard from Verona (a close friend)? I said yes I get an email update every once in a while I reminded her. Then she asked about Bro. Weimer (her long time heaven sent Home Teacher). I asked if she wanted me to get in contact with these 2? She said I want them to speak. Then her speech croaked out again. I can only assume she meant at her funeral, since she was speaking of dying all afternoon. I don't want to beg her to stay, because she has endured soooo much, but I don't want to tell her ya go ahead and go right now. Everyday I have some sort of talk with her about how I'm OK, my family is OK, Mandy's OK, Aaron's OK. I ask if she wants to talk about anything. And I mention my Grandma ALOT! They were close, and I feel if mom does pass...Gram will be waiting to escort her away from this life. I want mom to know that if she does feel Gram's presence...it's OK.....it'll all be OK!

My brother is coming for a visit I think on the 4th of September. My sister told her that, and she asked, "That long?" Through it all, whatever she says or doesn't say...we crack jokes! I live to make her laugh/smile! If there is one thing that sticks out as taught by my mother...you always have 2 choices..Laugh or Cry. It's better to laugh!

Skinny Minnie !

So some readers of this blog will understand this post better than others! Look how thin mom has gotten?!?! She has always been on the heavy side. In fact, about 2 years ago, more or less, I saw ankles on her for the first time in my life! She was extatic! Weight loss has been her battle for her whole life. Standing at a whopping 4'9" it was hard for her to ever slim down. So when this whole downward decline began, I started feeding her all the fattning crap I could! And of course, she would refuse it at first (how the lady doth protest too much!) but then she would give in to the choclate sin!!! However, she still was refusing mashed potatoes, fried foods, etc..."It'll make me fat"! I couldn't get her out of the mode of thinking that....she's thought that way her WHOLE LIFE! So in the past year, I have been holding up her wrist for her to see...proving the fact that she was indeed skinny! She can't even wear my Grandmother's watch anymore...it just slides right off! her shirts are size small, but look how they fall off her shoulders in the picture!

Well as you can see, the past 3 months has been even more of a challenge weight wise. I always thought it was just a saying...SKIN AND BONES...but nope! It actually can happen! This is a picture of her holding her H2O cup. Just bones. I asked if I could post about it and she was actually happy to let me post pictures....saying, "I'm finally skinny!"
Well mom, just so you know...this is NOT A GOOD THING! Her little body is just not retaining any of the nutrients we feed it. Her teeth are even on the decline...but don't tell her that! She has always taken such good care of her teeth..they are still being taken care of, however, her body is just not functioning properly, so they are graying. At least she is happy that we can now call her "SKINNY MINNIE!"

A Day of Beauty - June 2010

So back in June...it was a day of beauty for mom. She was having an "up" day and it was unusually cool around these parts...so I took her outside for a haircut. Korynn was my little helper. here is a picture of the "after"...mom didn't want a "before"...so prideful! LOL :) Next we came inside and I polished her finger and her toenails! In a pretty summer pink color! She'd hate me for saying so, but then we plucked eyebrows, and chin whiskers...a dash of perfume and blush and she was beautified!

That same day, Korynn wanted to help some more...so she sat on Grammy's lap, as she has done so many times before and fed Grammy! Mom is so patient with this kind of "help"! I guess all grandma's are patient. Mom only ended up with only a few vegetables, a drip of ketchup, and some lemonade on her blouse! Way to go Korynn!

Here are Mom, Korynn, Kendyl, and Enna (my mom's sweet aide) after the lunch! I'm glad my mom can't feel much in her legs; cause whenever Korynn sits on my lap for that long...her boney bum starts to hurt my leg! :) These pictures are taken with me phone so forgive the blurry/grainy look.